zenelly: (Digimon - Happy Family)
Okay, so I'm home in Texas finally which is nice, because this semester has lasted a FUCKING YEAR! I'm glad that I have less responsibility here, but I miss my girlfriend. She stayed up in South Dakota for the time being.

And SINCE SCHOOL IS OUT

I HAVE BEEN WRITING FIC!

I can tell you this much about what I've been writing: Seiner is coming first up, and you guys are going to HATE ME for this. Hopefully, TTB will be after that, and then I get to start working on all the various one shots AND REQUEST FICS and other stuff that I've been compiling ideas for, such as LAPDANCING ZEMYX FIC.

(By the way, if I've promised anyone fic that ISN'T a request on kh_request, because I have notifications for those sitting there glaring at me, LET ME KNOW.)

(also, jsadlfasdf new KH:DDD trailer holy shit skaflsdaf)
zenelly: (Chad - This Beat)
Alright, so I currently have request slots open at [livejournal.com profile] kh_request!! Ten of them this time, and, as always, it's first come first serve.

I'm serious, you guys, request stuff. I like the challenge, and I like writing for you people.



Thread is here:
KH Request Post!!

Aw damn

Aug. 13th, 2011 11:29 am
zenelly: (AkuRoku - Cold outside)
It is AkuRoku day. And I don't know what to write for it.

*FROWN*

ETA: NO. NO, FUCK YOU, LJ AND YOUR GMT+5 HOUR THING YOU HAVE GOING ON HERE, IT IS STILL AKUROKU DAY FOR FOUR MORE HOURS AND I WILL WRITE FIC, DAMN IT.

Hm.

Aug. 10th, 2011 04:35 pm
zenelly: (Edo - Tattoo)
Alright, question.

Does anyone really care if I just start posting the masochism fic as is? Like, another WIP? Because I could and it might be fun to have something that has a little bit less of a definite timeline (and hey, it might mean more Seifer/Hayner porn for you guys).

Just something to think about.

RANDOM

Aug. 9th, 2011 11:29 am
zenelly: (Ken - Stressing)
I really need a title for this suddenly HUGELY EXPANDING Masochism fic that I'm writing for Seifer/Hayner. Like, I haven't been able to write for the last week and a half, but I'm plotting the hell out of this piece and I just... I need to title it before I actually start writing it.
zenelly: (SPN - Castiel Headtilt)
Not dead, just busy, I swear.

ONE MORE WEEK OF WORK. It turns out that I miscalculated last week. I leave work next Thursday. (Hopefully, I won't have another fiasco with that whole "accidentally leaving the porn flash drive at work" thing like I did last year.) SAN JAPAN THIS WEEKEND, SUPER EXCITE!! I might get to see [livejournal.com profile] pandapplesaurus there, too! *waves* I'll be the person dressed normally with a Red Scout and N Harmonia on Friday and with Dib and Zim on Saturday. (N will be back on Sunday, but I'm not cosplaying this con. Too little time, too much to do)

Um. I'd love to say that I've been writing, but that would be a bare-faced lie. I haven't written a word of anything outside of fleshing out some ideas since last ... Thursday. What in the world have I been doing in the meantime (as I *cough*erroneously*cough* assume you're wondering)?

Reading.

Like, reading a lot of fic for fandoms that I've just let stew for a while. Especially you, Inception fandom, hello there THard and JGL and all of the sexy that comes along with you. *cough* That aside... There's one thing that I've been noticing a lot of. In fics, in general, not just Inception fics, and I'm not exactly sure how to go about talking about it.

Well.

Um.

Masochism.

As in, getting off on recieving pain, etc etc, you all read fics, you know what I'm talking about.

I don't... I don't like how it's portrayed in fics, because for me it's not an accurate description. (It's like reading the parts in blowjob fics where the author mentions teeth-on-cock during the blowjob, and I have heard from multiple guys, straight, gay, bi, that that does not, in any way, feel good.) Because I am a masochist. Things that should register as pain for other people turn me on. Whipping and what-have-you. *handwaves*

That's not the important part.

The important part is the fact that in all these fics, I keep hearing about the pain aspect of it, or the fic is told from the pain-giver's PoV. (and I can bet that anyone reading this is going to be like "...but Zene, it's MASOCHISM, hello PAIN" but see, that's where you're wrong.)

For me, I don't feel pain. Like, I CAN feel it. Certain things, like hot glue or cuts, do register as pain normally. I stub my toe and that shit is PAINFUL. But on the flip side, I can also (this is a true story) get my lanyard caught on my desk and it will drag across the back of my neck, giving me a small case of ropeburn on my neck and causing me to have to sit at my desk for a few minutes while I try to get my breathing back under control and my eyes are having trouble focusing because that felt so good.

But the point is that, while getting the ropeburn was a painful thing, I never actually FELT any of it. I didn't actively feel pain, I just registered it as "rough texture, feels good" and it was hard enough that it felt REALLY good.

So really, my point is that I don't know if any of the people writing the fics are actually masochists, because I'm not always sure that they know how it really feels. Because, let me tell you, pain does NOT come into it. IF there's a bit of a bite to it, it doesn't feel any different than someone dragging their nails across your skin. A tiny little counterpoint that really just gives a more definite LOCATION for where the pleasure is.

I TOLD YOU ALL THAT TO EMBARRASS YOU SO I COULD TELL YOU THIS:

I am totally writing a Seifer/Hayner fic where Hayner's a masochist. It's mostly going to be me exploring how best to explain my own masochism (because, hey, everyone's different, maybe other people DO feel pain? Maybe I just have a really high threshold? I don't know) in terms of fic. Also because Seifer/Hayner is my go-to pairing when kinky shit is about to go down, because I can't get a plotbunny for them to save my life, but DAMN do those boys want to get into bed with each other.

...um.

TL;DR, I'm writing a porny fic with Seifer/Hayner because I am dissatified with general fandom portrayal of masochism.
zenelly: (SPN - Dean Laugh)
Apparently for me, 'tis the season for Zene to get tons of fic ideas. Seriously. Long ones. Like, case and point, a brief outline of the ones I've thought of so far. (yes yes, previews of fics I am working on, short one-shots not included)

1. Death Note - Matt/Mello FBI AU where Mello's a genius who graduated from college at like, 14, and now works for the FBI, Matt's a high school dropout because he was too bored in school to do the work, and Mello thinks that Matt's a waste of space and abuses him into getting a degree. Also, Matt has a crush on Mello's computer. (No, really, I'm serious. It's funnier than it sounds, I swear)

2. Kingdom Hearts - AkuRoku Being Alive AU where Axel's the jaded single friend among all of his dating/married/going to be married couple-friends and Roxas doesn't even make a dent in his radar until he unjades himself.

3. Kingdom Hearts - Zemyx Being Alive AU prequel where Demyx and Axel are dating and Demyx freaks out because he doesn't know if Axel is the one and ends up meeting/falling in love with Zexion.

4. Kingdom Hearts - Zemyx Insomniac!Zexion AU where Demyx accidentally befriends Zexion, who turns out to be an insomniac and calls/disturbs/creeps on Demyx at all hours of the day but particularly inappropriate ones like 4 am. But he does it out of love. Because Zexion's obsessive like that. Demyx has no idea what he's just gotten himself into.

Also, every Seifer/Hayner fic I try to write ends up with them having sex. Like, I can't come up with a plotline, but BOY do they want to get in bed with each other.

*sigh*

Jun. 28th, 2011 08:09 am
zenelly: (THOUGHT WHAT IS THOUGHT)
So, I have an AkuRoku fic planned, right? Right. And it's going to be an AKUROKU fic, none of this Zemyx nonsense that plauges all of my other fics (mind you, Zemyx will still be there, just pre-established).

But I'm a little stuck on the plot.

So what does my brain come up with first?

THE ZEMYX PREQUEL.

*glares at brain* YOU ARE BEING UNHELPFUL.

Alright, I'm out. I'm trying to write bits and pieces of the request fics (that homg, have taken me so long, I am so sorry) and get everything else in order as well. Summer makes me think of fics, apparently?
zenelly: (Chad - This Beat)
THIS POST IS FOR THREE THINGS.

1. A reminder that there are still TWO PROMPTS open at the thread on kh_request. If you look down a few entries, you'll find it. FILL THEM PLEASE. I like having tons of things to do.

2. WHEN THE HELL DID I WRITE SO MUCH FIC. IT DOESN'T SEEM LIKE THAT MUCH, BUT I LOOKED AT MY MASTERLIST TODAY AND WAS LIKE "WTF??? WHEN DID THESE GET HERE?"

3. ....There was a third thing. I swear to god, there was. *thinks* OH YEAH. Why are all my ideas for Seifer/Hayner ridiculously smutty things? Like, seriously.

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