zenelly: (Digimon - You Are My Sunshine)
You might have noticed that I didn't post anything NaNo related. That's because I got stuck on the part I was writing, so I just time-skipped until I knew what was going on.

Which was HUGELY PLOT RELEATED

So I'll just leave off on the posting until I like a description or a passage or something.

Another thing. It has come to my attention that I'm a pretty bad LJ friend. I mean, I have a few people who take the time to comment on my fics, and I don't comment back on theirs ([livejournal.com profile] theplumtomato, bb, I love you, I just have a case of permanent shyness, and I'm getting over it) even though I read them.

I'M GOING TO FIX THAT.

Also.

um.

shit, forgot what I was going to say.

MY 21ST BIRTHDAY IS IN TWO WEEKS! TWO SUNDAYS FROM NOW, I WILL BE ABLE TO BUY BOOZE AND GO TO BARS, ETC.

but that wasn't what I was going to say.

Right, I promised all you fic people that I'd post the request fics that I've written here, didn't I. Well. Let me get on that, hm?
zenelly: (SPN - Castiel Headtilt)
Not dead, just busy, I swear.

ONE MORE WEEK OF WORK. It turns out that I miscalculated last week. I leave work next Thursday. (Hopefully, I won't have another fiasco with that whole "accidentally leaving the porn flash drive at work" thing like I did last year.) SAN JAPAN THIS WEEKEND, SUPER EXCITE!! I might get to see [livejournal.com profile] pandapplesaurus there, too! *waves* I'll be the person dressed normally with a Red Scout and N Harmonia on Friday and with Dib and Zim on Saturday. (N will be back on Sunday, but I'm not cosplaying this con. Too little time, too much to do)

Um. I'd love to say that I've been writing, but that would be a bare-faced lie. I haven't written a word of anything outside of fleshing out some ideas since last ... Thursday. What in the world have I been doing in the meantime (as I *cough*erroneously*cough* assume you're wondering)?

Reading.

Like, reading a lot of fic for fandoms that I've just let stew for a while. Especially you, Inception fandom, hello there THard and JGL and all of the sexy that comes along with you. *cough* That aside... There's one thing that I've been noticing a lot of. In fics, in general, not just Inception fics, and I'm not exactly sure how to go about talking about it.

Well.

Um.

Masochism.

As in, getting off on recieving pain, etc etc, you all read fics, you know what I'm talking about.

I don't... I don't like how it's portrayed in fics, because for me it's not an accurate description. (It's like reading the parts in blowjob fics where the author mentions teeth-on-cock during the blowjob, and I have heard from multiple guys, straight, gay, bi, that that does not, in any way, feel good.) Because I am a masochist. Things that should register as pain for other people turn me on. Whipping and what-have-you. *handwaves*

That's not the important part.

The important part is the fact that in all these fics, I keep hearing about the pain aspect of it, or the fic is told from the pain-giver's PoV. (and I can bet that anyone reading this is going to be like "...but Zene, it's MASOCHISM, hello PAIN" but see, that's where you're wrong.)

For me, I don't feel pain. Like, I CAN feel it. Certain things, like hot glue or cuts, do register as pain normally. I stub my toe and that shit is PAINFUL. But on the flip side, I can also (this is a true story) get my lanyard caught on my desk and it will drag across the back of my neck, giving me a small case of ropeburn on my neck and causing me to have to sit at my desk for a few minutes while I try to get my breathing back under control and my eyes are having trouble focusing because that felt so good.

But the point is that, while getting the ropeburn was a painful thing, I never actually FELT any of it. I didn't actively feel pain, I just registered it as "rough texture, feels good" and it was hard enough that it felt REALLY good.

So really, my point is that I don't know if any of the people writing the fics are actually masochists, because I'm not always sure that they know how it really feels. Because, let me tell you, pain does NOT come into it. IF there's a bit of a bite to it, it doesn't feel any different than someone dragging their nails across your skin. A tiny little counterpoint that really just gives a more definite LOCATION for where the pleasure is.

I TOLD YOU ALL THAT TO EMBARRASS YOU SO I COULD TELL YOU THIS:

I am totally writing a Seifer/Hayner fic where Hayner's a masochist. It's mostly going to be me exploring how best to explain my own masochism (because, hey, everyone's different, maybe other people DO feel pain? Maybe I just have a really high threshold? I don't know) in terms of fic. Also because Seifer/Hayner is my go-to pairing when kinky shit is about to go down, because I can't get a plotbunny for them to save my life, but DAMN do those boys want to get into bed with each other.

...um.

TL;DR, I'm writing a porny fic with Seifer/Hayner because I am dissatified with general fandom portrayal of masochism.

PFfffft

Jun. 29th, 2011 10:17 am
zenelly: (Ouran - Evil Grin)
Guys, guys, you NEED TO GO TO THIS WEBSITE.

RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW.

And here is the reason why. Cut because the text gets ... a little raunchy )
zenelly: (Miyazaki - Rocks)
INTERESTING NEWS BROUGHT TO MY ATTENTION BECAUSE OF TUMBLR.

National Sex Day (yeah, Americans have a day for everything, what can you do) is on June 9. I repeat, National Sex Day is on June 9.

Or rather.

National Sex Day is on 6/9.

IT'S ON ZEMYX DAY, GUYS.

This is the day maker.

But now I have to figure out what I want to do for Zemyx day... *ponders*
zenelly: (SCI-FIVE)
Unfilled request, that is. I'll probably start posting the other fills soonish (I say soonish like it's going to be a while, and not, like, this afternoon, or something) around here, since work won't let me get to FF.Net and damn it, I just remembered that.

-_-

Their internet filters have gotten much better since last year....

SO! JUST ONE MORE REQUEST! And then a few days off, and then I'm probably going to start up another round. Because I'm a masochist like that.
zenelly: (Barney Stinson - Words of Wisdom)
The phrase "victory squint" is now added to my vocabulary. FOREVER.





(oh jeezus, this is hilarious. Leo, what does your face dooo...)

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