Importance of words....

[zenelly]

It's strange sometimes.

For the past two days, I've been in a very bad mood, for reasons I'm sure all the female watchers I have will understand. I get touchy and prickly and in general, I just seem to not do well with anything negative.

(During this time, I also try to avoid replying to reviews, because if I happen to read a concrit one or a bad one, I don't want to be a bitch to them just because I'm in a bad mood.)

But Something my roommate Tyna said last night actually hurt. And it still hurts.

She doesn't like fanfiction anymore.

She doesn't want to read it anymore.

And that just really doesn't make sense to me, because this is my Captain, who was the only person during my summer internship that I could rely on being awake when I needed to text someone to stay sane (because Pixie, though she's my beta, sleeps late). She's the first one who told me that TTB sounded interesting, and she was the one who put up with all of my rambling texts that were seven texts long and mostly incoherent depending on my level of caffeine. And she doesn't like fanfiction anymore.

I don't understand why that hurts. It almost feels like she insulted a little part of me. And that's just silly. I mean, it's not like our friendship is based on fandom. But I like it when my friends like the things I do. I liked knowing that if I sent her something, she would read it. But now she won't.

I'm not too sure what to do about this, and I think I'm just being silly, really....

*siiiigh*

Comments

[key2thekingdom.livejournal.com]

;A; Noooooooo. That's so sad. I hate it when friends don't wanna talk to you about something you're interested in! (OMG. I'M SUCH A HYPOCRITE. I'LL TRY TO LISTEN MORE DORI; PROMISE) You're not being silly though; it's weird when stuff like that changes.

*hugs*

When she said that...

[xtorchlightx.livejournal.com]

... it kind of felt like your stomach dropped a bit, didn't it? For some reason whenever someone leaves the 'clique' we always feel terrible. It might be the fact that we are all co-dependent upon each other. We're a group of people who look to others for advice and give it in return. When someone leaves it might hurt mostly because we know they are taking their input from us, saying that they no longer find joy in what we do- what they had taken part of for so long. T~T