Just a Beat Out of Place

 Alright, so it's been approximately.... forever. it's been a while.

Like, "four years" a while. 

Hey, whatever, right, just. Yeah. I'm sorry, this is probably coming out all kinds of weird and uncertain. my head's not in the best place. Like, not mentally fucked, but just. I can't focus or formulate myself the way I'm used to being able to. I can't really look at anything for longer than a few seconds, so really, the fact that i'm able to write this at all is a really big deal for me.

But hey, here I am.

A lot's been going on. Not all of it good. Most of it is, but. Not all of it. My body's finally giving up on me, in fits and starts. I'm going in to see someone about that eventually, so it shouldn't be too big of a deal for too much longer. I think. 

I hate my job.

Not that I don't do it, or not that I'm not capable of it, but I just don't like it. I'm not interested in it, and it's really not challenging to me, and if my salary wasn't what was keeping my entire apartment afloat, I would... probably not quit, but I'd certainly rest easier. 

I'm not sure why I'm writing this, honestly, but I feel a bit better.  Maybe that's why.

Alright guys, I think that I'm back for now.

Of course, NDK starts tomorrow, so I might not have too much access to the internet in the next couple of days, but eh.

I'm still not going to go into what happened, because I'm still not sure what all happened. Needless to say, these past five days have been absolutely insane with the emotional ups and downs and all arounds that my particular circle of friends has been through. Insane, I tell you. One of those situations where you end up just staring at the events that have happened and giving up because you're too tired and frustrated to deal with it.

But it didn't happen directly to me, just to one of my closest friends, and because of that, we all sorta got involved. At least on the periphery, which hurts almost as much as being straight in the middle.

I still haven't written anything between getting cosplays ready and dealing with the fallout, but I'm hoping that I'll have around an hour today to get at least SOMETHING written on paper.

Hold me to it, guys.

Also, what would you think about doing your first fic in a fandom for a holiday exchange thing? Think someone should get more of a hold on the characters first?

1. Accidentally punted a frog as I was walking to my car.

2. Got into said car just in time for "Don't Stop Believing" to come on the radio.

3. Figured out that my PSP is stupid and how to fix it without actually having the program on the computer at work. So now I have those 30+ songs that were missing before.

4. Realized that I possibly got recognized on the KH Kink Meme for a fic I haven't de-anoned on yet. (not sure if flattered or just embarrassed)

5. Read a metric ton of fanfiction at work.

6. Got a swag bag of fun stuff, like Axel and Roxas figurines and plushies.

7. Waited until the next day to realize that I had put this entry on private.

I am. SO SPESHUL.

HOW IS IT THAT THE ONE DAY I NEED TO WRITE FIC IS THE ONE DAY THIS WEEK WHERE I'M COMPLETELY OUT OF OFFICE BECAUSE I'M RUNNING AROUND DOING THINGS?????

No, I'm completely serious. It is Zemyx day, and I WILL HAVE FIC, DAMN IT, but the only time I've had to write/plan any of it has been ten minutes of furious texting between me and my Captain at lunch and the five minutes it took me to write that texting in a word document in all caps.

That being sai, I have the WORLD'S MOST FANTASTIC idea for a fic. SO. I am off to write that in the ... hour and fifteen minutes I have left at work. We'll see how far we get.

Everyone here knows that last Thursday was my last day at my summer internship. And most of the people who watch prettypixiechan on DeviantArt know that college is coming up soon for both of us. (We're going up to the same place). So, here's the update for you guys.

(and an embarrassing story, because I just have to.)

Alright, so, College. In South Dakota. Ten days. I sorta can't wait to get back up there, because I get to see my captain (Tyna) again, but at the same time, I'll miss my friend Hiko and my family down here. Texas is warm, and South Dakota is not. I'm not actually sure which one is better. *headtilt*

We have to wake up at the ass-crack of dawn to get to the airport, and then fly for an hour to wait for two and a half hours for the next flight. >.< Does not approve. But then we get up there, and we have an apartment (but a new roommate to deal with. (Pixie translates that to be "New punching bag")), and I get to see my uncles and sister again. And her cat.

I'm looking forward to it, but also not.

ONTO EMBARRASSING MOMENTS.

Last Thursday was my last day at work. The power went out around 1 pm. My computer was still on, because it was plugged into the sockets that were supported by the diesel generator. And then they shut that off to get the main power reconnected around 3 pm. The power stayed off until 4:30, and I just decided to pack up all of my computer stuff and start drawing.

Apparently....

Well...

Remember all those fanfictions I've been writing at work?

Um. They were on a flashdrive.

That I apparently didn't pick up.

So I left my boyporn. At work. That I wasn't going to go back to.

I am SO dumb sometimes.

But! I got it back on Monday. (By calling up my co-worker and explaining to her that there were VERY IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS RELATING TO MY SCHOOL on there. Which there are, but that's not what I wanted.)

Zene is a derp-face sometimes.