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Dec. 4th, 2015 09:13 am It feels a bit strange that I'm essentially trying to set up my own personal capital before I even have anything in place.
Like, I'm trying to avoid mentions of my real name attached to any of my social media sites because when (not if, damn it, I can be optimistic) I end up doing that whole Author Thing and Get Published, I really, acutely want my fandom stuff to stay separate. I don't want people to know that Zenelly is the author of so and so book/series/whatever. I want that to be me, and I want Zenelly to just stay a fan, because I want to keep the safe space I have there.
I'm not planning on denying my involvement with fanfiction. Not in the slightest. I still view it as a terribly useful tool for practicing, and that's what I'm going to keep saying about it, but I'm not... I just don't want Zenelly to get thrown under the bus because of that. Maybe once I'm a bit more established or something, I'll feel differently, but for now...
Well, for now, I avoid mentioning my real name, I'm beginning to avoid things that involve my face for reasons other than crippling self-consciousness, and I guess I feel a bit pretentious doing it. Oh well. Better that than anything else.
Like, I'm trying to avoid mentions of my real name attached to any of my social media sites because when (not if, damn it, I can be optimistic) I end up doing that whole Author Thing and Get Published, I really, acutely want my fandom stuff to stay separate. I don't want people to know that Zenelly is the author of so and so book/series/whatever. I want that to be me, and I want Zenelly to just stay a fan, because I want to keep the safe space I have there.
I'm not planning on denying my involvement with fanfiction. Not in the slightest. I still view it as a terribly useful tool for practicing, and that's what I'm going to keep saying about it, but I'm not... I just don't want Zenelly to get thrown under the bus because of that. Maybe once I'm a bit more established or something, I'll feel differently, but for now...
Well, for now, I avoid mentioning my real name, I'm beginning to avoid things that involve my face for reasons other than crippling self-consciousness, and I guess I feel a bit pretentious doing it. Oh well. Better that than anything else.
